My name is Maybelline and I'm (F19). I have been friends with a girl for 1 year when she was 20 and I was 18 (She's 21 currently). We'll call her "Oko". Oko and i usually hang out on the weekends when we both have free time, and once a month she would invite me to watch her band practice at her other friend's house, I think her name was Sunny or something, i just remember that she was the drummer. Her band consisted of 4 bandmates/friends. The singer, the drummer, the bassist, and Oko was the electric guitarist. Anyway, I admit that in the early days of our friendship her band's music wasn't very good, it wasn't much of a problem for me, infact it was sort of cute. I just thought it was another wannabe indie band that thought that they would "be on the charts". But lately I admit the band's music has been getting better. And then she started talking about how many gigs she's getting and how much she wishes to become more popular than her ex-girlfriend. And I'm just like "Okay, like who actually cares? I don't need to be reminded of how boring and shitty my life is." So, 5 months ago I got a boyfriend (20M), who we'll call Kevin. Kevin found out about Oko through one of our hangouts and he wanted to know more about her band. I was a little hesitant because he seemed a little TOO interested. Like it's just a girl with a guitar and her bandmates, nothing special about it really. The day they did band practice in front of him, he acted as if they were gods. Like he asked each member where they got their instruments, and where they were playing next. He even fucking bought one of their stupid merch pieces. I tried to tell him it probably wasn't worth it, I mean one t-shirt was 15$. Who in the world is buying that? >:( But even after I said all of that, I secretly want to join her band. It's not fair that she gets to have all the fame and glory while I'm stuck in a boring job with geriatric fucks, and having a boyfriend who barely buys me flowers or asks about my day. Also, I think Kevin is a tiny bit into Oko too. Like he always calls me just to give him her number, asks where she got her jeans or skirt, and he talks about her outfit choices 24/7. Occasionally I'd make small jabs at her. Not too hard where it was noticeably mean, but not too light where Kevin wouldn't at least think twice before talking to her. Sometimes i'd say tell him small details about her life that she so happened to tell me. Nothing drastic, but y'know. A liiiitle embarrassing. Like how she works at a clothing store that barely pays her enough for rent, or how she lives in the projects and there's practically mold growing inside her walls. He brushes it off and still talks to her likes it nothing though. I know I shouldn't be too jealous of her because who really cares, but I've wanted to be famous for so long and she's getting recognized like it's nothing. What should I do?